Wednesday, February 28, 2007
-why-
when i walked away....... it wasn't because i was angry...... though i know it can't be true, i walked away to avoid the thought that had floated into my mind...... that you were more interested in making friends with my allowance...... it just ain't worth it...... not gonna let these thought ruin the great friendship that we have...... but......
| wish i was dead @ 4:14 AM|
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Saturday, February 24, 2007
-new skin...... i like it...... tt's all that matters......-
changed my blog skin obviously...... and i like it...... all thanks to hanafi my bro...... well...... thanks once again fi...... stay cool and peace out......
| wish i was dead @ 11:16 AM|
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
-my life is a negative-
i've finally concluded...... my life is a negative...... why? because everytime i have something, it just goes away and disappears, very much like how adding a postive figure to a negative figure and getting a zero, or even worse, another negative figure, works...... maybe you might say...... well that's because i have never met a bigger postive before...... but you are wrong...... this negative of mine, that is my life, is infinite...... a number that never ever ends...... at the age of nineteen, i've realised that many of my dear friends are distant, many are soon to be far away from me, and there is nothing that i have in life...... not any achievements, emotional, physical or in the form of intelligence...... nothing...... nothing at all...... coming close to be on this place for almost 2 decades, all i've gained is nothing...... living in nothingness sucks...... it does...... and once again i feel like asking...... what's the fucking meaning of me living......
| wish i was dead @ 10:06 PM|
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Monday, February 19, 2007
-my friend no matter where you are-
had one of the best chilling out sessions in my life last friday...... with jia hui who was back for a holiday from melbourne...... for the 3 years that she went there, i never really met up with her whenever she came back to singapore...... however, through msn, we chat alot and she really is someone who knows me very well...... however, her presence wasn't truly felt until last friday when we had a great time chilling out over drinks...... why do we as humans never treasure the precious things that are around us? when we were classmates in secondary school, we were still kinda good friends but never once did i treasure such a great person around me...... why? because she was near, is my theory to that...... now that she's going back soon, the thought of having a best mate not near around me makes me confused...... why didn't i ever treasure or realise such things earlier? again, the answer seems the same...... well...... i don't really know what else to say but when she reads this blog or i hope she will when i tell her to, i really want you, jia hui, to know that i'm sorry that i never seemed to treasured a good friend like you when you were near...... and it is a great loss now that i realise it...... but i guess it can never be too late...... so...... whatever happens, wherever you are, lets keep in contact and carry on this wonderful friendship...... all the best to you...... and fortunately or unfortunately, you'll have a friend in me when you feel down, when you feel that you have to talk to someone, when you have joys to share, when you have fears and you don't dare, i'll be always there for you like you have always been there for me...... and you will become the doctor to you wish to be...... hopefully your first patient won't have to be me...... but even if it is, i know that i'll be in absolutely safe hands...... take care...... see you again...... soon i hope...... have a good life...... bon voyage...... and let me know whether i can send you off...... my house's really near the airport =) your friend always, Jason...... hopefully this is enough to make a person cry...... but i know you won't cause you are too strong =)
P.S I heard melbourne's fish and chips are damn good...... Someday, it'll be your treat...... =)
| wish i was dead @ 2:14 AM|
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
-Valentines 2007-
though today is valentines day, and i dont have a female valentine, i spent a wonderful night with my bros...... heart to heart talk between four mates was just the best way to spend a lonely valentines day...... i never expected how much they knew me and what they said was kinda unreal as it felt as if my thoughts had been implanted into their minds...... their words were especially touching as we spoke of troubled times and the fact that we'll be going our separate ways in about a fortnight's time depresses me on a already depressing valentines day...... however, friends like that only come once in a million years and as i always feel, we should treasure the good times...... i thank God for these friends and in case you fellas are reading this, treasure our good times together..... which means...... Cuefactor...... hahahah...... whatever it is and wherever we go, i'll die without regrets having mates like you fellas...... so...... good luck fellas in whatever you do and we'll forever be bros...... take care my comrades......
P.S. Happy Birthday to a Pharker whose surname's Yong......
| wish i was dead @ 8:28 AM|
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