Tuesday, September 19, 2006

-Nothing to do......-

this has got to be the most random post since this blog was created...... i'm at home now...... unexpectedly early...... waiting for the repairman to fix my leaking toilet...... someone told me not to take my life so seriously for less troubles...... somehow i dun think i take my life very seriously...... like i'm forever clowning around everything...... it's as if i never had a serious moment in my life...... somehow it already seems like my whole life is a joke for some reason or another...... like i was never supposed to have existed...... if that is the case, why am i still here to piss myself and my loved ones off? guess that's what they really mean by finding a meaning and purpose in life...... and of course there's always the all important value of a person...... no matter how i look at it, things and people don't seem to be affected whether i'm around or not...... is that because my value as a person hasn't been found yet? or am i just worthless...... i don't know...... but i guess since i'm really not that important, that leaves me alot of room for decisions of all kinds...... which is good i guess...... coz it purely means u can do things without thinking about who it affects since it doesn't......


| wish i was dead @ 1:28 AM|

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